Sunday Reflections

In years past, my family has always said, "Let's not do Christmas this year; nobody has money to get gifts so lets just get together and not exchange presents" Yet, inevitably, every year on Christmas morning, under the tree there are several gifts for everyone in the family. Inevitably, everyone is running around and stressing about getting those last Christmas presents for those people who you can't figure out what the heck to get them. I was reminded today during the sermon that my mindset during the Christmas season is usually off. I am so busy trying to make sure that the house looks like Christmas, smells like Christmas, that all my grandmas and grandpas and moms and dads have gifts that are meaningful, to make sure that the gifts actually get out in the mail to those far away, to bake the seasonal cookies, to spend the day going to pick out the tree, and decorate the tree, oh and let's not forget all the parties that we have to attend! There is SO much that flutters around us during the Christmas season, but this year I want to remind myself not only to celebrate the season, but to really EXPERIENCE the season. And by that, I mean I want to spend more time reading the STORY of Jesus, and worshiping Him as much as I can. I want to make sure that all those grandmas and grandpas and moms and dads KNOW that they are loved by spending more time with them and telling them how much they are loved. This time is a special time of year (MS's favorite time!), and the reason for that is because of the amazing GIFT that was given to us by our Lord and Savior, the most amazing gift of all - his ONE AND ONLY son. It is the ultimate gift, and one that cannot and should not be overshadowed by decorations, gifts, and goodies.

Her Father's Daughter

My daughter, who I baked for 10 months looks SO much like her father it is scary sometimes. MS reminds me that she can't look exactly like him, because remember, she IS a girl! :) She has his mouth, his eyes, his feet, his cheeks....so much of this little girl is him. She even HATES the water, just like her father. She screams like I am doing something so horrible to her that she would rather gouge her eyes out with her little fingernails than be put in the bath. MS also hates the water - he will go to the beach wearing a long sleeved shirt and regular shorts because he knows for certain that he is not going in the water. He doesn't even own a bathing suit, that man. So needless to say - this girl is already following after her dad. I think that I am going to be the only Webber boogie-boarding at the beach during the summers in the future!

Sunday Reflections...on Monday

Over the last 10 months I have had to come to some realizations that my life has not turned out the way that I thought that it was. I was supposed to get married on August 1st, and then we were going to have an awesome married two-some life for a couple of years, buy a house, and then make some babies. Well - that didn't happen. I have had to deal with my emotions that I was doing it "all wrong", that the Lord was upset with me because I didn't do it right. There have been a range of emotions that went along with changing the date of our wedding (along with a lot of my visions of how my wedding was 'supposed to look like'), to having to tell parents, grandparents and friends that we were expecting before we were married, to being married and pregnant, to now having a beautiful baby girl. The Lord has spoken me through several people telling me to trust in Him, to come to Him in humbleness and brokenness and confess that I did not do it right but that I (as well as baby Webber) were in His hands. Then finally, when I was about 32 weeks pregnant, I was crying out to Him in the bathtub in complete brokenness, sobbed at what my life was, I was able to let it go. Lift my situation up to Him, and actually then several weeks later, I finally forgave myself and accepted my situation. I know that He has my life all in His hands, and He has a plan for my babe. I am coming to this realization: I have always believed IN God - but now I want to simply believe God. Believe that His plan IS perfect in every way, that His way is the ONLY way, and He will only give to me what I can handle. His will is perfect. Faith is a living trust and whole-hearted reliance upon God for our very hope and life. And THANK GOD for that.

Now Enter...baby Webber!

She's here!! Well - she's been here for three weeks and one day already, but this child has taken all of my time and I have not been able to get her mug shot up here yet. Kaitlin Anne was born on October 29th @ 7:54 pm after being induced the night before. I went in for a NST on the 28th and the technologist realized that I barely had any amniotic fluid left - it was time for her to come out and join our family. I had pretty intense back labor with her for most of the night, and the AM, and after getting an epidural and realizing that it wasn't working after a couple of hours, I pushed for 2 hours and out came our beautiful baby girl. And she really is amazingly beautiful!! Being a mom is nothing like I ever expected and more amazing than I ever imagined. Seeing MS with his daughter is probably the most magical feeling I have ever witnessed and I can't wait to see this little one grow. I have lots more to post and will try to post more frequently, but the baby Webber is fussing now because it is time for her to eat!